This Venerable One likes to write nonsense
『What do you want to know about this Venerable One?』
❉ I'm Jackson. You can also call me Airam.❉ He/him.❉ 27 years old.❉ Amateur dark fiction writer.❉ Proshipper: against harassing people over a character, fictional CP (couple pairing) or what they like in fiction.❉ Darkshipper: morally complex characters and taboo themes in fictional relationships are my passion.❉ I feel overwhelmed if I have a lot of notifications, so I'll probably not reply to comments at that time. That said, I apologize in advance. I'm bad at behaving like a normal social being and sometimes I'm too lazy to think of a decent answer.❉ Neurodivergent by misfortune. No need for tones. I'll tell you if I didn't understand your comment, just like I do in real life.❉ Former Christian with religious trauma but obsessed with Christian aesthetics.❉ I love toxic characters and villains. The more traumatized or evil they are, the more love I have to give them.❉ I retweet any fanart I like, even if I haven't seen or read the original content.❉ I read manhwa on official websites, and buy novels and manga/manhua when I have money. But first I read pirated versions, then I buy them only if I like them. Anyway, if you're a big fan of calling people “illegal” for wanting to enjoy reading even though they barely have enough to eat, you can block me and leave.
My works
⚠ I am NOT morally or ethically critical of my interests in fiction. As long as it's not based on specific actual events or real people (biographies, historical fact, true crime...), I don't give a damn about what happens in a manga, book, anime, whatever.I like to analyze characters and stories, but condemning fictional characters and talking about them as if they were real criminals to be imprisoned is something only insane people do. I have my own mental issues, but I don't reach that level of insanity.So, if I like them, I will like everything about them. In fact, I condone everything my favorite character does. Amen.In simpler words so you can understand better: I only look critically at news and issues that involve the real world and its people.That said, my works and my CPs are not a reflection of my ideals and moral. This is just about dark fiction and some of my own fantasies caused by previous and personal trauma. If you can't understand all of this, please get out of here quietly ⚠
My writing influences
Among the writers who inspire me are
| Dazai Osamu | Edogawa Ranpo | Harada (manga) | Tang Jiu Qing |
| Dai Sijie | Qiu Miaojin | Rou Bao Bu Chi Rou | Hiro Arikawa |
| Marquis de Sade | Rosalía de Castro | Liu Zhenyun | Ogai Mori |
| Ngũgĩ wa Thiong'o | Edgar Allan Poe | Akutagawa Ryunosuke | Natsume Soseki |
| Abdulrazak Gurnah | Fyodor Dostoevsky | Yasunari Kawabata | Pascal Bruckner |
| Jane Austen | Sebastián García Hidalgo | Alphonse Daudet |
Themes or tropes that I enjoy
| Dom / sub relationship | Dubcon | Noncon |
| Consensual nonconsent (BDSM) | Unhealthy relationships | Selfcest |
| Incest | Role play | Threesome |
| Gangbang | Age play | Lolisho |
| Futanari | Orgasm control | Overstimulation |
| Breeding kink | Voyeurism | Exhibitionism |
| Orgy | Crossdressing | Size difference |
| Katoptronophilia (mirrors) | Sensation play | Teacher x student (vice versa) |
| Sensory deprivation | Corruption and training | Bestiality with monsters or mythological creatures |
| Alpha / beta / omega dynamic | Accidental stimulation | Face fucking |
| Pet play | Praise kink | Angst |
| Lactation kink | Foot fetish | Pussy worship |
| Sleep play | Breath play | Mob |
| Virginity kink | Glory holes | Objectification kink |
| Erotic humiliation | 24/7 arrangement | Cuntboy (cis male character but with pussy) |
| Eroguro | Gore | Drunk sex |
| Hate-love sex | Enemies to lovers | Religious themes (only Christianity) |
Fandoms I am currently in
| The husky and his white cat shizun | Sukuna x Megumi CP | Path to nowhere | Punishing: Gray Raven |
| Rainbow city | How dare you? | Karaoke iko/Famiresu iko | Scent and sensibility |
| 19 days | Ashes of the Kingdom | Wookyung x Minho CP | Escape from the basement |
| Happy twogether | The thread never burned | Killing stalking | Diluc x Kaeya CP |
| Low tide in twilight | Xiao Chiye x Shen Zechuan CP | I became a first-class guide thanks to my childhood friends | Futago to sensei |
| The wife is first | Banana Fish | Love me, revive me | Feel my benefit |
| The heart of the lotus | Blossoms of the white night | Autumn at the cemetery | Dreaming freedom |
| Night song | The snake demon wants to flee | Kiss me if you can | Roses and champagne |
| Off track | The demon Lord has a cat now |
My fav CPs
Ryomen Sukuna x Fushiguro Megumi
Mo Ran x Chu Wanning
Kyouji Narita x Satomi Oka
Mei HanXue x Mei Hanxue x Xue Meng
Cha Wookyung x Byun Minho
Kaeya Alberich x Diluc Ragnvindr (+ vice versa)
Chang-geon x Sam-myeong
Park Juyeon x Kwon Jiwook
Shindo Ainosuke x Hasegawa Langa (+ vice versa)
Lan Wangji x Wei Wuxian
Lou Jing x Xiao Chengjun
Zheng Jia x Qiao Yang x Zheng Yan
Jaeshin x Lee Nok
Rahu x Shalom
Luo Binghe x Shen Qingqiu
Bai Chunian x Lan Bo (Rimbaud)
Caesar Alexandrovich Sergeyev x Lee Won
Yeo Taeju x Kim Euihyun
Kaji Akihiko x Nakayama Haruki
Oh Sangwoo x Yoon Bum
Sebastian Michaelis x Ciel Phantomhive
Shuraka x Tei
Eve x Adam (Dear. 00)
Asami Ryuichi x Takaba Akihito
Jing Shao x Mu Hanzhang
Ash Lynx x Okumura Eiji (+ vice versa)
Xia Houdan x Yu Wanyin
He Tian x Mo Guanshan
Beom x Ahn Geumhu
Heeryang x Yeonjo
Takishima Kei x Hanazono Hikari
Knives x Vash
Lee Jae x Jinseong
Joo Seungeon x Min Jiwook
Chikui x Yu Rue
Jung Yeonwoo x Tae Joon
My comfort characters
Ryomen Sukuna (Jujutsu Kaisen)
Chang-geon (The Heart of the Lotus)
Taxian Jun (2ha)
Narita Kyouji (Let's go to Karaoke)
Mahito (Jujutsu Kaisen)
Shindo Ainosuke (SK8)
Cha Wookyung (Sadistic Beauty)
Liu Bian (Ashes of the Kingdom)
Fang Siming (Yi Meng Jianghu)
Baek Cirrus (Lost in the Cloud)
Park Juyeon (Revenge)
Eve (Dear.00)
Caesar Alexandrovich Sergeyev (Roses and Champagne)
Ash Lynx (Banana Fish)
Oh Sangwoo (Killing Stalking)
Demon (A Path to Nowhere)
Vinny Hong (Windbreaker)
Roland (Punishing: Gray Raven)
Kaido Haru (Super Lovers)
Agatsuma Soubi (Loveless)
Ashikaga Hyouta (Bishonen Tanteidan)
Baek Siyoon (Dreaming Freedom)
Novel recommendations!
| Translated title | Original title | Author | Genre | My rating |
|---|---|---|---|---|
| How to Survive as a Villain | 穿越成反派要如何活命 | Yi yi yi yi - 伊依以翼 | BL, +18, drama, transmigration, historical | 8/10 |
| Notes of a Crocodile | 鱷魚手記 | Qiu Miaojin - 邱妙津 | LGBT, coming-of-age story of queer characters | 10/10 |
| Dumb Husky and his White Cat Shizun | 二哈和他的白猫师尊 | Rou bao bu chi rou - 肉包不吃肉 | BL, +18, xianxia, drama, action | 10/10 |
| The Wife is First | 妻为上 | Lu ye qian he - 绿野千鹤 | BL, action, historical | 10/10 |
| Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation | 魔道祖师 | Mo xiang tong xiu - 墨香铜臭 | BL, +18, transmigration, drama, xianxia, mystery | 9/10 |
| The Scum Villian's Self-Saving System | 人渣反派自救系统 | Mo xiang tong xiu - 墨香铜臭 | BL, +18, comedy, tragedy, xianxia | 8/10 |
| Daily Task of Preventing my Disciple from Turning to the Dark Side | 每天都要防止徒弟黑化 | Hei mao ni ni - 黑猫睨睨 | BL, +18, action, xianxia | 8/10 |
| The Demon King Always Thinks I’m Secretly in Love With Him | 魔君总以为我暗恋他[穿书] | Dong fang huang gua - 东方黄瓜 | BL, +18, transmigration, action, adventure, xianxia | 8/10 |
| Gone with the Bustling World | 倾尽天下 乱世繁华 | Canghai Yimo - 沧海遗墨 | BL, romance, tragedy, historical | 10/10 |
| The White Cat’s Divine Scratching Post | 神木挠不尽 | Lu ye qian he - 绿野千鹤 | BL, +18, xuanhuan, comedy, fantasy | 9/10 |
| Waiting Upon You | 等你仰望 | Yi Xiuluo - 易修罗 | BL, +18, romance, BDSM | 8/10 |
| Let me Tease You | 先撩为敬 | Qing Duan - 青端 | BL, mystery, comedy, xianxia | 7/10 |
| The General's Cat Always Wants to Climb Into my Bed | 将军家的猫总想上我家床 | Baihu ci - 白狐辞 | BL, mecha, mystery, sci-fi | 7/10 |
| Silent Lover | 哑奴 | Qiang Tang - 羌塘 | BL, +18, drama, fantasy, mpreg | 5/10 |
| Bite Your Fingertips | 咬上你指尖 | Su Jingxian - 苏景闲 | BL, modern, psychological, romance, school life, supernatural | 9/10 |
| Run Freely | 撒野 | Wu Zhe - 巫哲 | BL, drama, romance, school life, slice of life | 10/10 |
| The Fallen Merman | 人鱼陷落 | Lin Qian - 麟潜 | BL, ABO, supernatural, action, adventure, romance | 10/10 |
| Sea Monster Alliance | 海怪联盟 | Tiantang fangzhu zhe - 天堂放逐者 | BL, comedy, sci-fi, supernatural | 9/10 |
| The Submissive Emperor | 君为下 | Lu ye qian he - 绿野千鹤 | BL, comedy, romance, historical | 10/10 |
| The Sickly Beauty Substitute Called it Quits | 病美人替身不干了 | Yun Chutang - 云初棠 | BL, transmigration, fantasy, historical, romance | 7/10 |
| The Star Around The Sun | 明日星程 | Jingang quan - 金刚圈 | BL, modern, drama, romance, slice of life | 6/10 |
| War Prisoner | 俘虏 | Lihua yanyu - 梨花烟雨 | BL, +18, historical, drama, torture | 8/10 |
| Qiang Jin Jiu | 将进酒 | Tang Jiuqing - 唐酒卿 | BL, +18, drama, historical, mystery, romance | 10/10 |
| Phoenix Heavenly Voyage | 凤于九天 | Feng Nong - 風弄 | BL, +18, drama, fantasy, romance, historical | 6/10 |
| Want to Ascend? Then Fall in Love | 想飞升就谈恋爱 | Long Qi - 龙柒 | BL, adventure, drama, mystery, romance, xianxia | 8/10 |
| Black Lotus | 霸总前夫说我是黑莲花 | Bei zui shi yu - 北醉十渔 | BL, modern, psychological, slice of life, tragedy | 4/10 |
| Psychic | 灵媒 | Feng liu shu dai - 风流书呆 | BL, modern, +18, psychological, supernatural | 6/10 |
| Your Distance | 你的距离 | Gongzi you - 公子优 | BL, modern, comedy, romance, slice of life | 7/10 |
| Falling Down the Pond | 落池 | Yu Cheng - 余酲 | BL, romance, school life, slice of life | 8/10 |
| Mistakenly Saving the Villain | 論救錯反派的下場 | Feng yu nie - 凤羽涅 | BL, +18, transmigration, drama, psychological, romance, xianxia | 9/10 |
| Lord Xue Ying | 雪鹰领主 | Wo chi xi hong shi - 我吃西红柿 | HL, action, adventure, fantasy, martial arts, xuanhuan | 7/10 |
| Salad Days | 经久 | Jingshui bian - 静水边; Mu geng - 木更木更 | BL, modern, romance, slice of life, sports | 10/10 |
| Demon Apartment | 妖怪公寓 | Zui yin chang ge - 醉饮长歌 | BL, comedy, romance, supernatural | 9/10 |
| Application For Divorce | 离婚申请 | Yun jian - 云间 | BL, +18, drama, fantasy, romance | 7/10 |
| Social Outcast | 社交温度 | Ka Biqiu - 卡比丘 | BL, modern, drama, romance, school life | 6/10 |
| After The Abyss Dragon Woke Up | 深渊巨龙苏醒以后 | Sang Wo - 桑沃 | BL, action, adventure, comedy, fantasy, school life | Still reading |
| The Unfulfilled Desire | 初心未了 | Zen hen renjian wu baitou - 怎恨人间无白头 | HL, +18, second chance, romance, wuxia | 6/10 |
| This Omega is Immune to all Abilities | 这个Omega全异能免疫 | Qingmei jiang - 青梅酱 | BL, ABO, action, romance, school life, sci-fi | 9/10 |
| To Live | 活着 | Yu Hua - 余华 | Drama, tragedy | 8/10 |
| The Complete Guide to the Use and Care of a Personal Assistant | 助理食用指南 | Hebi canlan - 何必灿烂 | BL, comedy, slice of life, romance, apartment life | Still reading |
| Just Want to be his Lover | 就想和他谈个恋爱 | Li Dongren - 厉冬忍 | BL, drama, romance, modern, celebrities | 8/10 |
| Sacrifice to the Devil | 祭魔 | Xiaoye wan - 小叶丸 | BL, mystery, supernatural, reincarnation, exorcism | Still reading |
| After an Infinite Flow Player Retires | 无限流玩家退休以后 | Sang wo - 桑沃 | BL, supernatural | 8/10 |
| Transmigrating Into the Heartthrob’s Cannon Fodder Childhood Friend | 穿成万人迷的炮灰竹马 | Qie zai shan yang - 妾在山阳 | BL, comedy, romance, school life, slice of life, transmigration | Still reading |
| After Transmigrating Into an Omega, I was Marked by the Enemy | 穿成Omega后被宿敌标记了 | Shi quan - 十权 | BL, ABO, drama, modern, transmigration | 5/10 |
| Asteroid | 小行星 | Weifeng jixu - 微风几许 | BL, modern, ABO, drama, entertainment industry | Still reading |
| I can Read Minds but Won't be Marked | 会读心与不标记 | Zuo Run - 佐润 | BL, +18, ABO, adventure, mecha, interestellar, psychological, politics, power couple, royalty | Still reading |
| The Governor is Sick | 督主有病 | Yang Su - 杨溯 | BL, action, drama, fantasy, martial arts | Still reading |
| Vagabonds | 流浪苍穹 | Hao Jingfang - 郝景芳 | Sci-fi, fiction | 8/10 |
| Eternal Burning | 烧不尽 | Hui nan que - 回南雀 | BL, drama, psychological, romance | 7/10 |
| Referring to Father as Elder Brother | 指父为兄 | Taohua jiu dong, Zhu Yenai - 桃花酒动, 竹叶奶 | BL, +18, comedy, romance, incest, entertainmen industry | Still reading |
| Old Injury | 陈伤 | Hui nan que - 回南雀 | BL, +18, action, fantasy, psychological, ABO | Still reading |
| A Perfect Crime | 下面，我该干些什么 | A Yi - 阿乙 | Crime, mystery, psychological | 6/10 |
| I Love It! | 好喜欢 | Shi ban hui - 时半会 | BL, +18 | 8/10 |
| After Marrying an Enemy General [Interstellar] | 嫁給敵國上將後[星際] | Gong Zirou - 公子柔 | BL, +16, mpreg, romance, modern fantasy | Still reading |
| Jellyfish | 水母 | Sanqianshi - 三千世 | BL, comedy, entertainment industry, mpreg | Still reading |
| I Fell in Love with My White Moonlight’s Arch-Enemy | 我爱上了白月光的死对头 | San yue tao hu - 三月桃胡 | BL, romance, xianxia | 8/10 |
| Free Ren Yigu | 烂漫的任一顾 | Yourwei - Your唯 | BL, comedy, drama, psychological, romance | 7/10 |
| An Unconventional Method to Raise a Rabid Dog | 狂犬的另类饲养法则 | Zhuo jiu shi yi - 浊酒湿衣 | BL, +18, psychological, romance | Still reading |
| It’s Not Easy Being a Master | 师尊今天也在艰难求生 | Jinxi gu nian - 今夕故年 | BL, +18, action, adventure, mystery, romance, xianxia | Still reading |
| Family | 家 | Ba Jin - 巴金 | Semi-autobiographical novel | 9/10 |
| Unsheathed | 剑来 | Fenghuo xi zhuhou - 烽火戏诸侯 | Action, adventure, drama, fantasy, martial arts, tragedy, xianxia | Still reading |
| Wildfire | 燎原 | Bu wen san jiu - 不问三九 | BL, +18, drama, romance, slice of life | 9/10 |
| The Great Passage | 舟を編む | Miura Shion - 三浦 しをん | Slice of life | 9/10 |
| Fish Moon | 月魚 | Miura Shion - 三浦 しをん | Slice of life, mystery | 9/10 |
| Botchan | 坊っちゃん | Natsume Soseki - 夏目 漱石 | School life, slice of life | 8/10 |
| Schoolgirl | 女生徒 | Dazai Osamu - 太宰 治 | Slice of life | 9/10 |
| Gokumon Island | 獄門島 | Yokomizo Seishi - 横溝 正史 | Dark novel, thriller | 8/10 |
| Blind Beast | 盲獣 | Edogawa Ranpo - 江戸川 乱歩 | Eroguro, dark novel, +18 | 10/10 |
| Kaiki: Uncanny Tales from Japan | 江戸の物語 | Akutagawa Ryunosuke - 芥川 龍之介; Hisao Juran - 久生十蘭; Izumi Kyoka - 泉 鏡花; Koda Rohan - 幸田 露伴; Tanaka Kotaro - 田中貢太郎; Murayama Kaita - 村山 槐多; Ogai Mori- 森 鴎外; Nakajima Atsushi - 中島 敦; Okamoto Kido - 岡本 綺堂; Edogawa Ranpo - 江戸川 乱歩; Tanizaki Jun'ichiro - 谷崎 潤一郎; Yumeno Kyusaku - 夢野 久作 | Horror | 10/10 |
| No Longer Human | 人間失格 | Dazai Osamu - 太宰 治 | Slice of life, tragedy | 10/10 |
| Violet Evergarden | ヴァイオレット・エヴァーガーデン | Akatsuki Kana - 暁佳奈 | Fantasy, slice of life, historical | 8/10 |
| Violet Evergarden 2 | ヴァイオレット・エヴァーガーデン 2 | Akatsuki Kana - 暁佳奈 | Fantasy, slice of life, historical | 9/10 |
| Eternal love | 永遠の愛を、我が花嫁に | Takaoka Mizumi - 高岡 ミズミ | BL, +18, modern, drama | 4/10 |
| Classics Club Series | 〈古典部〉シリーズ | Yonezawa Honobu - 米澤穂信 | School life, mystery, romance | 7/10 |
| Last Embryo | ラストエンブリオ | Tarou Tatsunoko - 竜ノ湖 太郎 | Action, adventure, comedy, fantasy, romance, supernatural | Still reading |
| Thousand Cranes | 千羽鶴 | Kawabata Yasunari - 川端 康成 | Slice of life | 8/10 |
| Japanese Tales of Mystery and Imagination | Edogawa Ranpo - 江戸川 乱歩 | Horror, eroguro, mystery, crime | 9/10 | |
| Reborn as a Space Mercenary: I Woke Up Piloting the Strongest Starship! | 目覚めたら最強装備と宇宙船持ちだったので、一戸建て目指して傭兵として自由に生きたい | Ryuto, Nabeshima Tetsuhiro - リュート, 鍋島テツヒロ | Action, Sci-Fi, isekai | Still reading |
| Sugar Apple Fairy Tale | シュガーアップル・フェアリーテイル | Miri Mikawa - 三川みり | Adventure, fantasy, romance | Still reading |
| The Final Years | 晩年 | Dazai Osamu - 太宰 治 | Slice of life | 9/10 |
| The Hated Male Concubine | 황제의 미움받는 남후궁이 되었다 | Dajeongdam - 다정담 | BL, drama, historical, fantasy | 9/10 |
| Even If It’s Not Love | 아니라도 | Seo Hyeeun - 서혜은 | +18, drama, romance, organized crime | Still reading |
| I Corrupted The Good Male Protagonist | 선량한 남자 주인공을 타락시켰다 | Corona - 코로나 | Comedy, drama, fantasy, romance | Still reading |
| Chaise à la Reine | 셰즈 아 라 헨느 | Lanmaru - 란마루 | BL, +18, drama, aristocracy, politics | Still reading |
| Guardian of the Sun | 태양의 수호자 | Ideu - 이드 | BL, +18, adventure, drama, fantasy, romance, historical | Still reading |
| Profundis | 프로푼디스 | Aije - 아이 | BL, +18, action, horror, fantasy, harem, apocalypse | 8/10 |
| Things That Deserve to Die | 죽어 마땅한 것들 | Gye-ja - 계자 | BL, +18, action, romance | Still reading |
| Warm Boy | 미열 소년 | Keulleeo - 클레어 | BL, +18, ABO, drama, romance | Still reading |
| Disobey the Duke if you Dare | 공작님의 말씀을 거역하면 | Geulppobneunjapangi - 글뽑는자판기 | Drama, +18, fantasy, romance | 7/10 |
| Stalk Game | 스토크 게임 | Seram - 세람 | BL, drama, incest | 7/10 |
| Success Oriented Guide | 성공지향적 가이드 | Park Bo-yul - 박보율 | BL, +18, fantasy, romance, supernatural, guideverse | Still reading |
| Captive Prince | Captive Prince | C. S. Pacat | BL, +18, fantasy, historical | 8/10 |
| Prince’s Gambit | Prince’s Gambit | C. S. Pacat | BL, +18, fantasy, historical | 9/10 |
| Kings Rising | Kings Rising | C. S. Pacat | BL, +18, fantasy, historical | 9/10 |
| Crime and Punishment | Преступление и наказание | Fyodor Dostoevsky - Фёдор Михайлович Достоевский | Psychological, drama | 8/10 |
| Monozuki: La chica zorro | Monozuki: La chica zorro | R. G. Wittener | Fantasy, historical, sci-fi, steampunk | 6/10 |
| Narraciones extraordinarias | Extraordinary Stories | Edgar Allan Poe | Gotic, horror | 9/10 |
| The Murders in the Rue Morgue | The Murders in the Rue Morgue | Edgar Allan Poe | Crime fiction, detective story | 9/10 |
| El escarabajo de oro | The Gold Bug | Edgar Allan Poe | Crime fiction, detective story | 8/10 |
| La carta robada | The Purloined Letter | Edgar Allan Poe | Crime fiction, detective story | 9/10 |
| The Black Cat | The Black Cat | Edgar Allan Poe | Gotic, horror | 10/10 |
| Ojos azules pelo negro | Les yeux bleus cheveux noirs | Marguerite Duras | Fiction, sexuality | 8/10 |
| No llores, pequeño | Weep Not, Child | Ngũgĩ wa Thiong'o | Historical | 9/10 |
| Lunes de fiel | Luna amarga | Pascal Bruckner | Drama, slice of life | 8/10 |
| Les Voleurs de beauté | Los ladrones de belleza | Pascal Bruckner | Drama | 8/10 |
| Orgullo y prejuicio | Pride and Prejudice | Jane Austen | Romantic comedy, drama, historical | 10/10 |
| Saberse olvidado | Saberse olvidado | Sebastián García Hidalgo | Fiction, romance | 9/10 |
| Before the coffee gets cold | コーヒーが冷めないうちに | Toshikazu Kawaguchi | Contemporary fiction, fantasy | 8/10 |